I just spilt coffee all over these damn pants, yo.



........ i just wish they'd been mine at least. Daaamnn. :/ Does coffee come outta white? ><

We had a couple new recruits today. Would-be Turks.

Man, i love the newbies! They're so damn easy to scare. XD

Added bonus this time too. Really hot kid who thought he might try and ... get a-head... of the game....


Man, I've always wanted to do it in the elevator >:D








...Had a mouth like a fucking hoover >:)

THE BOSS HAS SENT US AWAY ;_;

Rude says I should look on the bright side. At least we're not locked up in the office anymore. But it's not even proper "hands-on" work. It's surveillance. Fuck this.

I have half a mind to call the Boss and tell him to..... to....... Yeah, well, as soon as I think of something good that wont also get me fired or killed, then i'll call him and tell him to do just that!

*wails* This sucks. Why is he being so mean? Well, meaner than usual? I wish he'd just, tell me whatever the hell it was i did wrong, dock summa my pay or... give me 20 lashes or something, and then move on, yo.

Well screw him, and screw the job. Rude's on watch at the moment, so I'm going to the local bar and gonna check out what the beer and tail's like at this end of the woods >:)

Boss has been acting... weird. I think.. Maybe. It's kinda hard to tell with him. He's not the most predictable man.

But he seems to have been acting particularly... 'cool' around me. It.. kinda freaks me out. I'm still worried that maybe i said something real stupid on the phone that night, and he's just biding his time, waiting for me to slip up and then hang me. Um, figuratively speaking. I hope o_0

Us Turks don't always get the whole deal on what's goin on. At least, Rude and I and the others. I bet Rufus keeps Tseng pretty well informed. Seriously, i don't know why they can't trust us more. I know i'm a bit... well, ya know, but i can still keep important secrets! Still, I aint real sure if buisness is going well or not. Maybe something happened I don't know of, and the President is just stressed about that, and that's why he's been so stand-offish.

But... sometimes i also wonder, ya know... doesn't he get lonely? I aint aware that he has any close friends or relatives or lovers or anything. That must grate on one's nerves after a while, yeah?

That's why i often try and be extra energetic when Rude and I are sent to guard him. I know how damn BORING paperwork can be, and the Boss has to do alot of it. So i try and make faces or crude jokes, or tease Rude 'coz yo, it's so easy to do ^_^, and i've seen the Boss smile sometimes and if he tells me off, he doesn't do it with that real icy tone he's got. So i figured he appreciated it. Who wouldn't? I HATE being stuck in the office all day, so a bit of humour always goes down well. Rude hates being confined in the office too, though he hides it pretty well. I wonder if Rufus is the same? Would he want to get out more, if he didn't have so many responsibilites and meetings and paperwork??

Uh, anyway, where was I? Oh yeah. But the Boss -has- been using that icy tone on me, and it's got me freaked. I like my job. Like working with Rude. I even like the Boss - though i don't really know why. Okay, well, i do, but.. fuck. Why does he have to be such an asshole sometimes? i aint getting no fucking sleep, as i keep thinking he's gonna fire me any moment >< I'm so confused. Did i fuck up? I mean, recently, majorly? I didn't think i had. I hope he stops PMS's or that whatevers got his panties in a twist ends soon, so he can go back to being his usual self.

'Coz the more cold he gets, the harder i try and make him smile, and i just know - as Rude's warned me a few times now - that i'm eventually gonna pull a stunt sooooo stupid, that it's gonna backfire and the Boss is just gonna flip. ><

Man, it's a good thing this job pays so well, or else all the stress and shit would almost not be worth it. Almost.

Oh yeah, one of the guys taught me how to finally security-lock this thing. Although he warned me it'd be a cinch for anyone to hack into if they wanted. But really, whose gonna do that 'cept maybe Rude, and you can see this anyway, can't ya big fella? XD

Hey, hey! Look what i found! This is so cool. C'mon Rude, c'mon c'mon partner. Please fill it out for me? I'm so booooored! ><

Dear Reno,
You make me ________.
You should _______.
I wish you would ________.
Someday I will ______ .
You are just like ________.
If I saw you now I'd __________.
I would build a _______ just for you.
I would get your name tattooed on my __________.
If I could sing you any song it would be _________.
We could drink __________ under the stars.
My love for you is like ____________.

Love,
_______________

(P.S. ______________.)

The Boss gave me a warning about my replacability yesterday ><

I'm never going to be able to look at a pencil again without feeling a deep, insecure fear.

Rude took me out drinking last night to try and take my mind off things. I... don't remember much of the night. 'Cept i've checked my phone. I called a whole bunch of people, including 3 calls to Rude - who was there with me!! - and... one to Rufus.

Oh fuck oh fuck oh fuck. I have no idea what i said. Or if he even picked up. Or if i even said anything.

Yo, i'm so fired. :(

Had a weird day today.

Me an' Rude had to go into town and harrass these punks who were tryin to stir up some trouble for the Boss....

It was weird, you know? Being on the other side. I use to be one of those kids. Now i'm 'the man'. I mean, the Boss is doing a good thing; he's trying to bring back some order and control. But still... it was just... weird.

Rude says i think too much. That would be a first.